Thoughts from Walmart.

before I start let me just note that it is after one in the morning...so there is a pretty big possibility that most of this will be quite interesting...as in most of it should probably be left in my head.

I had a pretty long day starting with running the He-Brews mqt. coffee shop while my dear Hannah and Alex were preparing to embark on their journey of shows, family wedding, music fests and other such awesome activities. The day went well and I felt so blessed to be there. And I felt like I was right where I needed to be.

Then I went to walmart. That line in itself should evoke very dramatic feelings. Because Walmart can be a very horrid place. So sometimes I feel like its my job to make Walmart more down- homey/dramatic/hippy-ish/interesting. So I went around talking to random people whom all blatantly ignored me...it was sad...first it started with my wondering aloud on why Crayola had to make their watercolour paints washable, it made no sense to me at all, whats worse is they don't even give you a regular paint option...so now even crayola is taking on the socialist stance and telling me what kind of paints I have to paint with. LAME. That ordeal was followed by my mother asking the walmart stocking guy to open a shipping box of Kleenex so she could select the one she needed.......wellllll I just had to go and tell him that the colours of the kleenex boxes that were packed on top would not do because they didn't match the walls of our house...and I also told him that we were very particular about that, because Kleenex boxes were a serious part of our home decor...both him and my mother ignored me. I said I was kidding, didn't help apparently. Then I ventured into the coffee isle ( I know its practically a sin when in Walmart) but I was staying far away from Foldger's fresh roasted sawdust to seek out some good tea, which Walmart happens to have...sometimes. Anyway Anna walks down the isle and says "just get your coffee and lets go!" to which I replied (in the general direction of the boy unpacking the coffee) "I would never buy coffee from and institution such as this!" ..."obama" ....then he looked at me, and I looked at him...he ignored me so I left. I tell you its impossible to make friends in walmart!!! I even tried with the check out guy but he didn't talk at all even when I asked him if I was annoying him. Walmart is a sad case. We should pray for walmart...maybe.

I decided that Northern isn't for me either...because I was informed that classes were pretty full...so why be an english major if I have to settle for cheap karate credits? In all honesty though, I am still praying about everything and really looking forward to this coming week at Deeper Life where I can imerse my self in the word and in the direction that He is calling me...I know that I can and should be doing that all the time...but lately I have become so discouraged and exhausted from it all. I think its because I have been ignoring God when He has been saying " Sarah, come...I will give you rest....Just get in my word and I will show you things you have never seen before" Its like I'm a walmart worker or something towards Him. Im not fake, I don't pretend to have it all together, I don't pretend to be super spiritual or have a deep perfect relationship with God when I know I need to work on things. I know that part of my problem is that I haven't been in the word enough...I understand, so I don't ask for sympathy, but encouragement...I don't ask for answers, but for prayer. God is still the focus of my life...He is my rhthym, I mean that honestly...Im just not always on the same beat.

Hey I just wanted to write real quick about a certain metal band that I find pretty inspiring and amazing...their name is Abide and they hail from the beautiful town of Marquette...hey I live there! Those guys are out there on the frontlines of music...well in our area atleast...and they are living and breathing what they preach...not like they are perfect saints, but the fight everyday to stay in the race. What they do is their ministry, not some dream to make millions under the "christian" banner. So check them out and support them please http://www.myspace.com/abidebandEven if you are like me and not so into the metal scene, I love what they are doing and thats what matters...plus those boys are pretty talented...just saying. Annndddd as our He-brews family would say, they are br00tal. Speaking of which lift up He-Brews and everything they do in prayer, they are amazing people.

It's probably time that I go to sleep. I have big plans for tomorrow. Love you.